Day 475

From the home recordings of Mark.

Minty Fresh

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5/4/2008

taken : 5/4/2008

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Spent all day studying.


Trying to type up some drafts for the possible essays tomorrow.

Fucking shit.

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A note about the song.

This is actually quite an old recording.

I did this...ummm probably July 2005.

T'was originally record for my girlfriend at the time

(fucking cheese ball I know...but I did it..I wrote her a song)

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After I gave it to her it sort of just got pushed into the dark.

'collecting dust'

It has just been sitting

it was a sporadic recording even back then.

I am horrible at planning these types of things...

...well anything I guess.

I wonder how long that will continue.


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At any rate...I am patiently awaiting for the early morning hours to see what Trent Reznor has up his sleeve....another Nine Inch Nails album?


I am like all the others out there and hoping for another album...hopefully a follow up to Year Zero.

If there isn't a new album, that shit would have been the biggest cock tease ever. Who releases a single via the internet with "go to nin.com on May 5th" embedded in the notes for the mp3...


...I mean really...

come on...

If this secret announcement is about the new website that is bullshit.

Please Trent Reznor?

Please?

Another album? That would be two this year so far...

Please?

Day 474

5/3/2008

taken : 5/3/2008

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Lunch with Lindsay.

Break from studying.

ummmmmm....the eassys on my final today were a little harder than I thought they would be. oops.

bluck.

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We have three of the same model chairs at our table in the living room. They are all painted different colors.

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I am starting the "Help Mark Get Some New Equipment" fund.

please place donations in an envelope labeled

"Mark is an asshole inc."

and rubberband it to a brick and throw it through one of the windows on the first floor.

...money to replace the glass would be cool too.

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just kidding

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self-portrait

Day 473

UPDATE
5/2/2008
10:10 PM



After years of trying...Lacey finally killed...well...whatever that toy was supposed to be. It took 3 years, but she finally did it...and man was she fucking stoked about it.

...I hope the PC Pet Pantry still sells those weird ass things...


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5/2/2008

taken : 5/2/3008

Walking back from Fleming.

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Been reading up on my Impressionism today.

...looking at slides also...


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Final tomorrow.

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Self-portrait
(this is what half of my face looks like)

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Some thoughts on Photography semester 1

It was nice using film again...but I am glad that class is over. I think people are well versed in the arguments for or against traditional film over digital...but seriously...shooting film is SUCH A WASTE.

The amount of paper one simply throws out making test strips/test strips with filters/poorly stopped or fixed prints...blah blah blah

Massive amounts of paper are simply thrown out...


Prints in the final wash need to sit a minimum of 5 minutes. In a running wash. That is basically just turning on the faucet on your sink for five minutes (for RC paper only! Fiber prints need to sit in a running wash for 30-60 minutes!...eff that).

Not to mention that water (as well as developing/stopping/fixing chemicals) becomes contaminated with silver.

It has to be specially collected and driven to a plant that can recycle the silver. Recycle? great...but that is such a waste driving that shit around to a plant.

So whatever...medium format film...you have great resolution...but you are a waste...

...and besides, my digital pushes the border on medium format film.

suck it.

(this is me merely complaining about the technical side of photo 1...not even talking about the students...or the people around the darkroom for that matter...)

Day 472

5/1/2008

taken : 5/1/2008

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Last day of class.

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9:30 AM.

This was the sight I was presented with when I entered this lecture room.

This class was canceled.

No one was there, but I couldn't help but feeling like a jackass walking into that empty room.

...I was given no notice whatsoever...

...My class right after this one was also canceled.

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So much for last day of class...

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snow?

eff that.

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So long Spring Semester 2008

Suck it.

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oh wait...finals...

Day 471

4/30/2008

taken : sort of 4/30/2008


(this is a picture of a picture..go figure eh? This is for my final photo project. For some reason we have to document them...?...taking a picture of the picture...?)


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Someone asked:

"Why do you like to solve a Rubik's cube if you have already done it?"

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It is mostly because...well...it is sort of like meditation.

I know my focus.

I know my goal.

I have one objective. Solve the Rubik's cube.

I can sit down and not think about anything else.

It clears my head.

It clears my mind.



And lately...


...that is exactly what I need.

For my mind to be clear...

to be away...

"about 2,000 miles from here"


gruffle.

Day 470

Bjork - Human Behaviour

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It's

um...

well,

I,

uh,

well

you see,

how to put it?

I,

uh,

think,

um,

...

damn.

dammit to hell.
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...

I faced quite a dilemma today.

I had not eaten since about 8:00 PM the previous night.

And here it was 12:30 the next day.

I wasn't hungry.

I knew I should eat something.

I knew there was room in my body for it.

But the shitty thing about it was...

I knew I wouldn't necessarily enjoy whatever I got,

because I wasn't hungry at all.

Do I buy some cheap shitty food?

Or some half way decent food?

I couldn't decide.

"Fuck it. One less thing I have to worry about," I thought.

...so I didn't eat anything.

end of story.


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Shortly after this I saw my friend Anna.

I love seeing Anna...but it happens quite infrequently.

Sometimes we get coffee together.

Anna is a biochem major...and she is on the track team and cross country team. She is a busy person...she also speaks German.

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"Hey, I am actually in a huge rush. I have to go meet with one of my professors right now," she stated to me(...in English, not German).

So I slapped her a high five (...an American high five...not the German kind).

...but I wasn't sure if it was because it was nice to see her or because I solved my not hungry/not going to enjoy any food because I am not hungry crisis thingy...


meh...it was both.


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and blah blah blah

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and fuck that

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shit.

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Hope to see you soon Anna.

Day 469

Devotchka - You Love Me

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4/28/2008

taken : 4/28/2008

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Lacey is cute.

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I feel awful about what happened today with my interaction with Amber.

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I went up to Fleming this evening to check on some prints I made (I also left my ID in the check out room).

I ran into Amber while I was there

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Last week while sitting with Amber we discussed how awful my project was going.
She sympathized.

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While speaking with Amber today she told me of the troubles she was currently having with her project.

"Mark, I think I am more fucked than you now," she said. She described to me how her film was all turning out horrible, and that she felt like crying.

"I was on the verge of crying about five minutes ago."

She was really down. She is normally very cheery and friendly, but you could tell she was not happy with the situation.

I tried to lighten the situation.

"Well...why don't you just get your boyfriend to help you," I joked.

I knew that she had been seeing a fellow by the name of Charlie, for what I thought (although I have no idea really) was a substantial amount of time. Charlie is a photo major. That's why I suggested it.

She looked at me.

"Um. yeah...he just broke up with me"

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Fuck

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I felt like a dick.

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How was I supposed to know they had broken up.

...I mean...

maybe if I had a facebook.com account I would have known...


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Sorry Amber.

Lacey is sorry too. Lacey is cute. So I hope that cheers you up.

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The song is for you too.

...even though it is a sad song.

Actually one of the saddest I have heard in a while.

..but maybe it will help.

sorry again.

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"Theres something missing
when you're kissing me
it's subtle yet it's gone.

Then I'm suspicious
then it gets vicious
then it's a hole right through the heart.


And when you said you loved me
I thought you loved me."

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Shit...maybe I just made it worse

I suck.

sorry Amber.

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umm...relate to it. It's sad, and lots of people feel that way all the time. Love is a sad thing sometimes. Find comfort in the collective misery of single/recently single/recently divorced...


...okay I'll just stop.