Devotchka - You Love Me
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4/28/2008
taken : 4/28/2008
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Lacey is cute.
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I feel awful about what happened today with my interaction with Amber.
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I went up to Fleming this evening to check on some prints I made (I also left my ID in the check out room).
I ran into Amber while I was there
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Last week while sitting with Amber we discussed how awful my project was going.
She sympathized.
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While speaking with Amber today she told me of the troubles she was currently having with her project.
"Mark, I think I am more fucked than you now," she said. She described to me how her film was all turning out horrible, and that she felt like crying.
"I was on the verge of crying about five minutes ago."
She was really down. She is normally very cheery and friendly, but you could tell she was not happy with the situation.
I tried to lighten the situation.
"Well...why don't you just get your boyfriend to help you," I joked.
I knew that she had been seeing a fellow by the name of Charlie, for what I thought (although I have no idea really) was a substantial amount of time. Charlie is a photo major. That's why I suggested it.
She looked at me.
"Um. yeah...he just broke up with me"
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Fuck
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I felt like a dick.
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How was I supposed to know they had broken up.
...I mean...
maybe if I had a facebook.com account I would have known...
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Sorry Amber.
Lacey is sorry too. Lacey is cute. So I hope that cheers you up.
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The song is for you too.
...even though it is a sad song.
Actually one of the saddest I have heard in a while.
..but maybe it will help.
sorry again.
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"Theres something missing
when you're kissing me
it's subtle yet it's gone.
Then I'm suspicious
then it gets vicious
then it's a hole right through the heart.
And when you said you loved me
I thought you loved me."
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Shit...maybe I just made it worse
I suck.
sorry Amber.
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umm...relate to it. It's sad, and lots of people feel that way all the time. Love is a sad thing sometimes. Find comfort in the collective misery of single/recently single/recently divorced...
...okay I'll just stop.
3 comments:
ah, you didn't know that he had broken up with her.
I don't know if you get e-mails when people leave comments or anything so I don't know if you'll see this, but I was going through your blog entries on your first page and read one where you said you ranted about Photo I. I was intrigued, went searching, scrolling through April, and (naturally or narcissistically) stopped when I saw my name...
Aw, Mark. Please don't feel bad. I feel bad that you felt bad. Thank you for the song.
haha, who would have ever thought the cosmos would have arranged that you read this post.
With your permission I will not feel bad.
Thanks for the comment!
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