the human condition

Friday, March 21, 2008

Day 431

3/21/2008

taken : 3/21/2008

Today a few of us went to the Boulder Beer Company Brewery. We grabbed some lunch, and Brian talked to the chemist there for a research project he is doing.

We drank some mead.

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Lets play a game. It's called: call Mark and we can hang out. Cool.

(If you really want, you can send a messenger bird to deliver a message...but that takes more time than the electromagnetic waves put out by cell phones)

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Day 430

3/20/2008

taken : 3/20/2008

My last roll of medium format film was used on another one in the on-going series of girls modeling for me in bed. This was the first shoot in which I used my new flash (with my digital camera). It is on camera (those strobist kids would be sad...like

Scott

) firing at 1/4 power pointed straight above me.

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Earlier in the day:

I had forgotten that this computer has an isight camera built into it...and that there is this narcissistic program called Photo Booth on it. I spent a great deal a time playing with it today. See... pointless things.

Lacey played with it too.

I also forgot that this thing can record video. I have thought from time to time about recording blog posts. But that is weird.

I mean. There is a particular distance I like between MYSELF and YOU.... in terms of me telling YOU how I feel about things.

At any rate. This is a video of me playing guitar. I don't quite make it through the solo (and never do...damn you Matt Bellamy). There are many mistakes I make through this.
but
critique my playing.

Good?
Bad?
"You should be doing that with your shirt off?"

suggestions welcome.

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Also, quick question.
I was talking to

Mike

about posting many things a day (granted I feel like it) in the hopes that the documentation of my life goes a little more in depth...

...or perhaps not even more in depth just simply more content for my friends to view. My question is do you guys like lots of stuff?

Or do you like it simple?

One picture? Short post?

tell me.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Day 429

3/19/2008

taken : 3/19/2008

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After work today I decided I was going to start Spring Break early. Fuck going to my classes on Thursday...and I have Friday off anyways...so screw it.

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I then drank alcohol.

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Good god Spring Break is needed badly. It is not that class is particularly stressful right now...it's just more like I haven't had time to do pointless things.

I would say that I need time to do things without a great deal of point to them from time to time to be able to function as a regular person in society.

Doing totally pointless things reminds me of how large the universe is. In knowing how large that space is I am humbled by the fact that there are a gazillion things in my life I have ZERO control over.

And thusly, I am reminded that I am in control of just a handful of things...and I am much more satisfied with that small set of life...things...

And while the life of a of 20 something college student is pretty good...there are a handful of things to be down about from time to time...but hey...

It's motherfucking spring break.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Day 428

3/18/2008

taken : 3/18/2008

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I have been meaning to pick up a bottle of this vodka.

...and I did.

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I am in a rather bad mood.

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My apologies if that is totally emo.

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I think a lot about the people I will know, or not know later in life. It seems like everyone is just about to go off into different directions. Which ones will keep in touch with me?

I think this is evidence about how much the future scares the shit out of me. I mean...I am like a 22 year old boy. I don't give a shit about getting a job. I do however care about the people in my life right now. Friends have come and gone quite a bit since as long I can remember. Does that ever stop?

I suppose that depends on the people.

It makes me sad to think I might not be close with some people that are currently in my life. In even just a year all of that could change.

And yet, it's hard to tell people how much you care about them.

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On a different note...
For a while, in the recent past, I had been sneaking into Gordon's room and turning the volume all the way up on his alarm clock. I Laughed every time I could hear his alarm clock blasting a full volume in the mornings.

haha.

But he caught on.

sad.

This is an example about how much I do not care about Gordon.

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